I can't take it any longer

All we do is linger

Slipping through my fingers

I don't want to try now

All that's left is goodbye (dont test my patience to say this)
With love. || 12:43 PM

我不知道，我们之间到底缺少了什么东西。。。我说不上来，但就是影影觉得缺了一些东东。。
不知是感觉，还是默契或是其他的。。

这几天想了很多，但还是不知道自己要的是什么，也不知道要人家怎么做。这是一种很苦恼的矛盾。
我不知道这是不是叫做强求，也不清楚是否该这样。。

我只感觉到每天的开心不是一致的，他没让我很开心，也没让我感到刺激或新鲜感，就是平平淡淡的每一天，平平淡淡的讲话，每件事都平平淡淡。。

强求是不会幸福的。但又怎么知道什么是强求或什么是尝试？
强求和尝试是否只在一念之间的分别呢？

我们到底需要些什么？
With love. || 11:34 PM

DREAMS.

i love to dream, and i'm referring to those that i get during my sleep, not daydreaming. i doubt many ppl actually have a mind like mine, who dreams practically abt everything & anything. even the most absurd stuff could appear in my dreams, without any rhyme or reason.

but most often than not, my dreams tell me what i really want in reality. from my dreams, i get to see my desires and some times things that i truely want, that may never be available in real life. it may have existed but is alrd gone or it may never or can never exist in real life, at all.

dreams may be happy, dreams may be sad. but dreams are definitely tell-tale signs of what u want (or at least what i want). dreams get me pondering.

dreamers, do you agree with me?
With love. || 1:46 PM

i'm skeptical.

i no longer have the confidence to trust and believe anyone in regards of a relationship. i always have this feeling or this fear that the person will still let me down. im afraid that everything will still boil down to the same disappointment, no matter how nice or how perfect u try to make it to be in the beginning.

my heart no longer have space for these 2 items, trust and believing.
With love. || 2:43 AM

i hate to be A 2ND CHOICE.

why do i always have to be in such a circumstance?
I HATE IT. HATE IT.
With love. || 1:18 PM

relationships...
love...
feelings...



are all confusing stuff.
With love. || 9:54 PM

perhaps, its a new feeling that i will be finding! :)
With love. || 2:18 AM

im sick and tired of all these inconsistency.

my head feels like its gonna explode soon. am i staring at the comp for too long or am i thinking too much?
With love. || 8:03 PM

xxx and i can spend hrs sitting under the sky, facing the sea, enjoying the breeze and say nothing but feel loved and enjoyment (i know this is the past. but it is a special feeling).
i enjoy the peace & calmness of the scenery as much as him and vice versa, we often do that, which is sad, cuz i don think i can find another person who will enjoy it tgt with me as much as xxx... this is a very sweet and nice feeling, that i will rmb forever.

xxx can give me excitement even w/o using money, just a very special feeling. it is a feeling, it is a telepathy, that words cant explain..

too bad he changed. too bad he was nv gd enuff.
but he is the only one, that could give me the feel. the one that shared "that feel" with me.. the one that i probably can nv find, anymore.
With love. || 4:43 PM

i rather have my hack care attitude back. even if it seems to be aloof.

im sick of this game. this very very troublesome GAME.
With love. || 2:06 PM

i cant wait to get new clothes, new clothes and MORE NEW CLOTHES!!!

i wanna fill my cupboard to the brim with it and adore them heheheheheh.
With love. || 2:22 AM

Many many activities and much updates (in life), too much that i dont know where to begin with.

Girls Movie Outing

Little J went to the salon one saturday afternoon, sick of herself & her style, then came out looking like another person.

coloured it, straighten it,


and snipped it off.

now i have bangs! and really short hair.

then gfs & i went to catch he's not that into you. i tot i would cry, but apparently, i did not.

rare girls only outing calls for massive cam whoring!


we do all the shits together & we get all the sweets together too.


our token of love.


the new Mini J! hello world!


Dbl O - The Yearly March Affair

then it was the once again yearly affair at dbl O during the march season! to celebrate M's bday!

theme: blair

blair-ish US!


the booze and the dance and the blairs, heh.


Secret Garden!

we revealed the secret on 13th March..


B's fetish with black & white


the ambience was great. and the girls were great.




happy birthday dearest M!


all ends well & good :)


the love that we share ♥


xoxo, the new life & my girls :)
With love. || 12:45 PM

sometimes, its really hard to decide wat u really want..
in life and in everything.
With love. || 2:34 AM

i have so much so much photos to collage! and so, so, so much stories to tell!
eheheheheh but i am just so lazy! wait till the wkdays then!



stay tuned :)
With love. || 4:44 PM

i seriously HATE copycats.
hate them.
With love. || 4:28 PM

i read this somewhere, and i find it very true. really damn true.

Life is a comedy...

I always looked upon this sentence and asked, really? is it really?
Well, i guess it is true sometimes, when you think you have something, you lose it... Laugh...
When you don't wish for anything, everything comes... Laugh...
The one you love, doesn't love you back... Laugh...
The one you don't love, loves you alot... Laugh...
The job you loathe going everyday to, pays you well... Laugh...
The job you love going to everyday, pays you peanuts... Laugh...

why is life like that!?
With love. || 9:41 PM

u dont only/really miss that person, cuz he's too much of an ass.
but u miss his parents and his family, cuz they are always nice to u.

a sad dream.
With love. || 12:30 PM

im soooo tired. i just feel like slping and not working.
i think im having tuesday bluesssssssssssssssss.. i want the wkends.
With love. || 9:54 AM

Jas
i rather be crazy cuz life's too short to be boring.
you can bite me, but i dont really care :)

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